Thursday, December 4, 2008

No more pity party

Seriously (and yes, I realize I use that word a lot) I had this whole blog about how depressed I was and how bummed I was about yesterday and the bank and the money...and how I suck at life.

But...fuck that.

I don't suck at life. Sometimes I suck at money...and sometimes I suck at being a mom...and sometimes I suck at being a wife...and most of the time I suck at keeping my house clean (that one's no joke). BUT I do not suck at life. At some point in time I am going to find something that I am good at, damn good at. Hell, maybe I'll be the best peanut butter sandwich maker, whatever it is, I'll figure it out...eventually. I'm just a slow learner, but I'm okay with that. I'll take being an okay mom and an okay wife to being nothing at all any day.

I do think there is something to be said for positive thinking. No, I don't think if I keep telling myself I'll win the lottery, I will...but maybe if I keep telling myself that we'll make it through this, just like everything else...then, we will. That's my belief system. I may not always believe in myself or my abilities but I do believe that no matter what, I can make it work. And really, life is way too short to waste more then, mmmm 24 hours, freaking out about things that you can't change. You just have to deal with and move on.


Peach said...

Hellz yeah!

You made an awesome bride - and you have the prettiest red hair of anyone I've ever known...two positives already!

It's okay to get mad and pissed and angry and sad and whatever else but then you shake it off, get the fuck over it and MOVE ON!

You have to...God has so much more punishment in store for you yet. ;)

Love ya hunbun!

natalie said...

Stace, you have no idea how much I needed to read this blog today. I've been feeling pretty bad lately and I'm trying SO hard to stay positive and just be thankful for what I have and what I don't have.

You can add awesome friend to that! :)

Love you.