Saturday, May 1, 2010

I didn't fall in to a black hole

There's been a lot going on around here and as usual my blog got pushed to the side. Sorry those of you who follow and actually read. It's just been a hell of a week.

The Ugly:
My uncle has brain cancer.
It's inoperable.
They are giving him 6-8 months with chemo and radiation.

He needs McDreamy. He needs a miracle.

The Bad:
I hate not being able to fix this. I'm a fixer. I like to make the people around me happy, it's what makes me happy. I can't make my cousins happy, I can't make my aunt happy. My cousin has been my best friend since I was 8, and yes this is the same cousin that doesn't know about this blog. I don't have a good reason for that, other then nobody in my family knows about it. Regardless, she IS my best friend. No matter how frustrated I get, no matter how different we may be at times, I love her like a sister. She's way more then just a friend, way more then just a relative. Her family, her parents are almost as close to me as my own. I spent weeks upon weeks with them every summer for pretty much my entire childhood. Thinking that "The Grand Pooba" might not be around to see my kids grow up, to see his own grandkids grow breaks my heart.
That's not to say that the doctors could be off, maybe he'll have a year, maybe 2. Maybe it'll only be 3 months. Nobody can say for sure...and I don't think this is any different for the rest of us. None of us know how long we just really starts to put stuff in to perspective. Things that seemed important, now seem silly.

The Good:
There has been some good. My mom and I took those crazy boys of mine to MI to visit family. We did a March for Babies and had a ball. I haven't seen them since my wedding 5 years ago, so it was nice to sit and talk. My boys met their cousins, and they loved each other.
Here's a few pictures from last weekend:

1 comment:

♥ Noelle ♥ said...

SO SO sorry to hear about your uncle. cancer is such a God awful thing. i can relate with what my dad went through. just remember that you won't want to see him suffer, cancer destroys a person and its SO unfair. just pray that he will not suffer. sending you lots and lots of hugs!!

love ya! ♥