I'm such a pain in the ass

And such a GIRL!

My birthday is Thursday. HH started asking last week what I wanted. And hey, this is planning on his part. It's usually the day or two before the event that he asks. He's the guy that does his Christmas shopping on Dec 23rd, at one store...or the mall.

Here's the thing...I'm horrible at asking for gifts for myself. I love receiving them, don't get me wrong, but I hate handing someone a list and saying "here, buy this for me". Especially HH because the guilt kicks in. I have an even harder time spending money on myself, and it doesn't help that my birthday falls just before Christmas shopping season begins and just after our Anniversary.

Here's the catch, I can't tell him to get me nothing because then I'll be bummed and yet I can't give him a list because what I really want, is for him to figure it out on his own. I rarely have to ask for lists because I'm constantly putting ideas away for future reference, things he says he would like, stuff he needs but won't buy etc. The stupid girl in me wants him to do the same. However, the realistic girl in me needs to slap the stupid girl around and remind her that he's a man. 10 years together and I've planned pretty much every event/date we've been on. This is not going to change and I need to stop being a pain in the ass and just tell him what to buy me. *sigh*

I sent him a link for tickets to see


If you want something done right, do it yourself, right? Maybe I'll get lucky and he'll plan the rest of date night? Or maybe he'll surprise and do something totally different. We shall see. I'm kind of over this whole birthday thing anyway. Who needs to turn 29?